constants

i grew up in a large family. i live in a compound. my first friends are my cousins and titas. and my confidant now are basically the same people. so whenever somebody asks me what i'm going to do on a weekend, i would rather spend it with the people i trust the most - my family.

growing up, i thought it was a curse. there was a time when i would dream of breaking free from family commitments and spend my time with classmates and friends. seriously, they're more irresponsible, spontaneous and fun. after a couple of years and tons and tons and TONS of mistakes, i'm more comfortable being with the people who are constants in my life.

don't get me wrong, we have our share of ups and downs. we bicker and fight and get personal which cuts deeper than usual circumstances with acquaintances. but we can't get out of family, at least in the Philippine culture, it's pretty hard to do that. we'll part for a time but sooner or later we'll reconnect as if nothing has changed. 

i don't know why i'm being a cheese. maybe it's the weather. but i'll thank the heavens again and again because i know i'm really lucky to have such awesome people around me.